Alone

I’m sitting here alone thinking of all the things I’ve done wrong. Thinking why you left, what was the reason? But soon I start to drift away in my dreamless world: ‘the drugs are making their effect’ I thought. A beach, a peaceful beach, where all you can see is the sand and ocean. Is this a dream or is this heaven? I can’t even make the difference between them. I lay down in the sand and wait, wait, and wait, because this is all I can do. Suddenly I hear some distant voices, I don’t mind them, I like the peaceful beach more. The voices start to become more louder and hysterical. Why can’t they leave me alone? Why can’t they go and leave me on this peaceful beach? In the distance a light appears, a warm light which is calling me. I start walking to her, but a scream pierces my ear and I become aware that I knew that voice. It was her. But why was she screaming? I didn’t care, I wanted to go to the light. Suddenly a shock runs through me and I found myself awake on a hospital bed with her standing in front of me. I should be happy, but I’m not, I’m angry because she left me and then she didn’t let me go.
‘Why didn’t you let me go?’
‘That’s because…", but I didn't hear the rest because blackness took over again, but this time forever.