Nothing will be the same

And once again, I need to write to calm myself.
Nothing will ever be the same, will it? I know understand the stupid mistake I did, writing that thing to you. I shouldn’t have done that, now you avoid me and I feel miserable. Now it makes you feel awkward, and I don’t want that. But the thing that made me decide in writing those three words was the kiss we shared that day. I felt so happy, even though I was embarrased.
But how can I understand what you think, why you keep avoiding answering my question? How can I know what you want from me? If you don’t want to have anything to do with me anymore you can just say. If you don’t like me and still wan to be friends, just say it. It’s even worse if you keep your silence, if you try to avoid talking to me.
If this will continue, I’m going to explode. My frustration keeps growing and growing…


*I don’t care if you read this, just please understand me and say something dude…I wasn’t joking with that message, really…I don’t joke with those kind of things…that’s all*