My heart is filled with…hate.Pure hatred wich I’ve never felt before. Why is it always me? I never was, never will be loved. I thought I coped with my situation, but instead I found myself being torn apart, from the inside.
I never knew I could feel like this: dead, empty…I am really dead inside. I can never be truly happy again. I can’t have the same smile I had in the past. It will always be a forced one, half-hearted even fake.
Why? I wonder…maybe it’s because I know something that said, would make me alive again, but it’s impossible cause it will never be said.
It’s theire fault for this but I don’t blame them, I think that in the end it would’ve been the same. It’s just that it came way too early for me an I wasn’t prepared.
I’m so jealous of those who can smile so freely…I feel so lonely, so hurt… I feel like crying my eyes out but the tears won’t come…they won’t and it hurts even more.
...hate still fills my heart…my empty now dead heart….
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